Your Vocation - am I called?!
The following question that came to me, but no number or email to respond, so I respond openly, as many young people are asking themselves: "Am I called"?
"What do you do if you like to be a priest but you are unsure of whether are you really called or not? And what do you do if you like to be a priest but you see that you are unworthy to be one because of your doings?"
What is a Vocation? In the simplest terms, “vocation” means a “call.” So, in general terms your vocation is what God calls you to do with your life. Everybody is called by God to know, love and serve him. The difference is how each one does this. Individual vocations vary between being single, married, consecrated, religious or a priest. However, we usually use “Vocation” to mean a call to the consecrated, religious or priestly life. In the one life God gave you to live, you have one most important purpose, to fulfill the will of God, because this is the key to your true destiny, eternal happiness. God gives each one of us a particular mission in life. As we grow and life progresses, he makes it known to us, usually in indirect ways, more as an invitation than an imposition. Discovering and ultimately following your vocation gives the greatest glory and praise to our Creator. It is what we were meant to do. “Take up your cross and follow me” (Mark 8:34).
How can I tell if I have a Vocation?
If you have a vocation there are two signs that you have found where you are supposed to be. One is that you feel "at home" there. This is logical, since your vocation is what God meant you to be when he created you, so obviously when you are where he wants you to be, you have the feeling of being made for there, which you were. You see, God always calls us higher. When you are where God wants you to be, you realize that you are not going to be able to do this on your own. You need his grace, it is going to cost you, you are going to have to die to yourself, you are going to have to make choices, there are things you like that are now going to have to take second, third or fourth place, or have no place in your life at all....
The second sign then is that experience of fear, looking at your present own life, that you are not able to fulfill your vocation on your own.
You could say it another way, you could say that you have found your call when you discover that you are really going to have to work to make it a reality. Your vocation is not something you discover and slip into comfortably and effortlessly. It is going to take all the qualities you have (both spiritual and human) and make you stretch and develop and use them beyond what you ever thought possible. Because God wants you to be a saint, and that is the challenge of a lifetime.
After these general explanation, I would like to ask you: are you happy to be close to Jesus, to his Church, serving at the altar of Jesus, and seeing yourself as the priest, or religious? Are you enjoying in prayer, not only together with others, but most of all, your personal, spending time together with Jesus, Mary at prayer? Do you read regularly the Bible, to learn who Jesus is, how apostles responded to their call, to be the fishers of people? Are are going often to sacrament of reconciliation to work on your character, comparing your life to life of Jesus and receiving him in Holy Communion?
Jesus is guiding you through your life to become more and more like him and to recognise his voice calling you among many other voices, often very noisy in the world.
Often in the lives of young people, happened that they follow more the noise of the world, and temptations of Satan, who want to take them away from God, and to take the destructing decision that is affecting their lives, often permanently.
The Vocation is a God's Gift, his Grace, and everyone is unworthy of it.
But this gift we need to receive with grateful heart, and make space for Jesus in our lives, so that from on - Jesus will lead us in our lives.
Some decisions of young people have permanent effects, for example, the girl get the child, or young man becomes the father of the child - in this situation the natural law - of being father or mother of the child - take first place and you must fulfill your duties to your child first.
Some life's situations call for the radical conversion - to leave behind the old ways of life and start to follow fully Jesus, as you can see in the Gospels. You need to reflect on your life in prayers, asking for the guidance of the Holy Spirit, as well speaking with the priest, to help you and guide you... May God Bless you, and reveal his ways to you...